omnia erit

I am currently in the midst of an epic- one girl and her two room mates(one close friend who actually lives in a different building, but that's beside the point) are emotionally prepping themselves to be locked up in a room for 24+ hours and accomplish a lot of school work. Good news is that my classes are cancelled which means that I have a four day weekend now since I don't have classes on Tuesdays. I had a really fun/laid back weekend with good company that included a short photo shoot @ Boston Commons, Pitch Perfect viewing, Halloweekend fun, and the Boston Book Fair! 

I ordered books via betterworldbooks and they arrived on Saturday, so I think I'm going to spend a fair amount of time reading when my exams next week are over! I haven't gotten into Haruki, but I've heard only good things about his writing so I ordered three books that my friends have recommended. 

In other relevant news, I found the scripture of my life and found wrenching salvation at a used books tent (+3 cool pins) and it's the perfect blend of humor and relevance. The Misanthrope's Guide to Life is the reason for my existence at the moment, and I've dedicated my life as a devout follower. 

Pitch Perfect was surprisingly hilarious, and it referenced so many things I love that it was just a ball of fun the entire time. Kind of sad that I can't party it up at Club Snell, because of Sandy, but ya can't get what you want all the time..

a little more than a year ago, when the leaves were still turning red, orange, and yellow in a suburb outside of philadelphia, i thought i wasn't going to get into my top choice school and spent long hours avoiding my friends and family by watching entire series of 90s throwback television shows in one or two sittings. this was the end of facebook, and the beginning of my newfound life as a moleskine writer.

 i wrote and drew in journals and sketchbooks, compiled playlists, composed letters that were thrown away after one or two paragraphs, and at many points throughout that autumn season, i thought i would disappoint my parents if i didn't get into a top twenty school.

 it's kind of funny to think that my dream school changed three times in a matter of a few months, and i was completely fixated on the thought of attending NYU for the entire month of april after i received some disappointing news throughout the end of march and the first week of april. i divided my senior year into three photo albums(premiere, intermission, and finale) and tried and tried to highlight the nature of how i was feeling, who i missed, what i wanted to become, the pinnacles and the maelstroms of december and march, but i ended up with lacking shots and the ultimate feeling that i wasn't good enough. 

as a senior- as a seventeen-year-old girl who didn't know if she wanted to study biology or delve into history, i was consumed by the idea of failure, and i tried to please my parents and the people around me, because that's what was kind of expected after i spent a large sum of years appeasing the standards that were considered ideal. 

in a year, the worries i have at this very moment will not matter.

in two years, they'll be forgotten.

in five years, when i'm hopefully in dental school, studying for exams and learning about my profession, i'll be on the brink of higher points of stress, anxiety, and disappointment, and perhaps, i'll think back to my first semester as a freshman undergraduate.

if there's anything i've learned from the time when i could kiss my cats for support and right now, as i'm lying on the floor of my dorm room floor, it's that change is inevitable. expect the unexpected. embrace the situation you're in. fix the problems that are going on right now. 

i never thought i would be in boston and always pictured myself in baltimore, chicago, or new york city, but hey, this is where i am RIGHT now, and i'm going to work to be someone who doesn't shake in fear or worry about tomorrow's problems.

series of b&w circa 2012 (mostly) 

revolved mostly around the feeling of graphite on one's fingers

after a week of almost freezing temperatures and SAFE sidewalks without longboarders/skateboarders/whatever else exists as a means for transportation for the average college douchebag, the weather is now crisp and perfect for photo outings! i usually run around the fens in the morning, but i decided to take some pics this afternoon after spending a few hours in my second home, club snell. i am such a huge advocate for nice, fall weather, because I AM AUTUMN'S #1 FAN! (i actually really love the color orange and the warmth/tones of autumn leaves/the morning sun..so ya)

i have a history midterm manana. in other news, i've decided to declare a minor in history. i was planning on double majoring in biology/history, but i feel like that may be a lot to handle right now, so ya.. minors ftw.

Happy Oct(ember)! I've managed to adjust to this newfound college lifestyle quite well, and I'm really enjoying my time in Boston with new friends, surroundings, and ~experiences~ except not so much the latter, but that makes my college life seem more exciting and interesting to my parents- so whatever works? The workload is manageable and my schedule is extremely flexible, so my assignments and studying are done in a timely fashion. There's so much emphasis on my grades this semester, because I'm applying to some dental programs/internships for the summer. I really hope I get accepted into a program at the University of Washington, because I would be reunited with the crisp, beautiful West coast air, my girl Sarah, and the general awesomeness of Seattle. Back to school, my room mate is my best friend/twin/everything in between, and I visited her quaint town, AKA the location where the proposal was shot(never seen it but still?), over Columbus Day weekend with our other friend. It was a glorious trip that really acted as a precursor to the true beauty of New England autumns. I've included some pictures from the orchard as well as the quarries we visited! 

I'm assembling a new playlist for the months of October and November, a mix of the Smiths/the Virgins/Frank Ocean/post rock bands/whatever works. I still have to make the cover art, but I'll post that soon! I'm going to try to update this blog more and post some articles about architecture/art/whatever tickles my fancy. Crystal Castles (III) just dropped and I've been bumpin' to that lately! I actually went to a CC show on Saturday and survived with zero bruises/battle scars.

we're in a tree doe